Going through the family photos of Jordan Nicole's birth brings back the flood of emotions like it was yesterday. Granted, it's only been a month, but already our lives have changed so much. I've never shared such intimate moments before, but y'all have been so supportive and encouraging throughout this pregnancy that I wanted to invite you in.
In the last trimester of my pregnancy, I started worrying about what labor would be like and how I would know it had started, the pain factor, etc. I'd been having tons of braxton hicks contractions and was induced with our son, so I just didn't know what to expect. Y'all were so reassuring and let me know that I'd know the difference, and you were right.
The night before I went into labor, my husband, son and I were sitting in the living room and talking about what we were going to name our baby girl. Up until then, we had all mentioned we liked the name Jordan, but it wasn't set in stone. We sat around and talked about other names, writing them down, and we all were laughing and vetoing other names and finally took a family vote and settled on Jordan Nicole before going to bed. We had no idea that she would decide to come the next day!
At 1:40 a.m., I was asleep when I felt a small squirt of water on my leg that woke me up. "Did my water just break?" I thought. It's so surreal when it actually happens and I certainly didn't expect it to happen then, at 37 1/2 weeks pregnant. And it wasn't a huge gush like I'd expected, so I wasn't 100% sure that's what it was. I even got up to google "what water breaking feels like". Then those lower, abdominal cramps started coming and they definitely felt different than the braxton hicks contractions and I knew. I called my doctor and got the doctor on call who said I probably was in labor and I should go to the hospital. "Right now?" I asked. Yes, right now. OMG, we're having a baby!!!!!! We're having a baby TODAY! Immediately, I'm thinking, is it too soon?? She's not due for 2 and a half more weeks.
It was then that I woke up my husband and told him what was going on. I think he was a little bit in shock, but also excited as he woke up from his sleep. We'd had a plan in place that our good friends and neighbors would watch our 6-year old son if we needed it while I was in the hospital, but we never talked about calling them at 2am. We decided that it would probably be several hours before anything significant happened, and we didn't want to wake them, so I ended up driving myself to the hospital while my husband stayed home with James. He'd come in a few hours when things got going.
I have to say that in retrospect, that was such a bad idea! The drive to the hospital was fine, but when you get there, you certainly don't want to be alone. They quickly tested me and let me know that I was, in fact, in labor, checked me into a hospital room, and gave me Pitocin to move things along. I let the nurse know that I definitely would want an epidural, so she said as soon as my pain started getting worse to let her know. Within the hour, by 5 am, I was ready for that epidural (and should have asked sooner), but the doctor had two patients ahead of me so I had to wait. The next two hours were horrifically painful. I was clutching the bed rails and just hoping to hang on long enough to get the drugs. I kept thinking of my friend Audrey who gave birth twice with no drugs and wondering how in the hell she did that?!?! I wasn't prepared to labor without an epidural and didn't know whether to breathe through the contractions or hold my breath or what. It was so super painful.
I was texting and calling my husband saying, GET HERE NOW!, and he ended up arriving by about 7am, as soon as he could get in touch with our friend and get our son over there. Thank God, about 30 minutes later, I got the epidural and was finally pain free! #Iheartepidural!!!!!!
Around 11am, we were just wondering how long I'd be in labor when the nurse came in and said, you're ready to push! And my Mom had just gotten there, so perfect timing! Within one contraction and two pushes, Jordan Nicole was born at 11:58 a.m. She weighed 6 pounds, 10 ounces.
With our son, we both had complications, so I never got to hold him before he was whisked away to the NICU. I was so thrilled that I got to hold Jordan immediately when they put her tiny little naked body on my chest. It's such an overwhelming feeling of love and joy that takes over as you see your baby for the first time. She looked like a wet, furry little kitten. She had a full head of dark hair just like her big brother.
I think with this second pregnancy, I was so consumed with being a mom to my son that I didn't feel as connected or bonded with Jordan before she was born. But, the minute I saw her, the feeling of love came over me like a flood. I also couldn't get over how such a perfectly complete little human being had been living inside me and now she's out in the world for us to actually hold in the flesh. It's so amazing!
I ended up having some complications post-delivery that required medical attention and left me severely anemic. I was so, so worried that I would end up in a recovery room without Jordan, but I was brought right back to her and she was in our room the entire hospital stay, which was just 48 hours. I'm doing much better now and healing well. Thankfully, baby Jordan is perfectly healthy.
Proud Papa! Maybe that's where all that glorious dark hair comes from!
All cleaned up.
And he couldn't wait to hold her. So eager and excited! I die over him!!
I never want to forgot how he kept saying how beautiful she was and how much he loved her. He's such a good big brother right from the start.
And now this sweet baby girl is already one month old! What a blessing. I love taking her picture, and I hope she doesn't get sick of having a camera in her face!
We're also thankful to have such a gorgeous nursery to call our own, designed by my friend Sita Montgomery and recently named one of the Top 10 Favorites of the One Room Challenge by House Beautiful. Such an honor! Hope you all have a great week!
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